My Testimony

Well, where do I start, my life is very different to how it has been. As a young teenager I became the victim of a serious sexual assault, my life changed dramatically when I was raped; I lost all my hopes and dreams and could not see a future.

I was unable to talk about my feelings and as a result I bottled things up, hoping that by doing this I would forget everything that had happened. However the memories and emotions kept coming back to haunt me and I turned to other ways to get by, many of which I am not very proud of.

My life started to change slowly as I began attending counselling. During my early counselling sessions I was a very difficult and hurting person, and frequently used to walk out and not return. I was unable to show my emotions as I was so scared of them, however over time I started to be able to open up and developed a rapport with my counsellor.

My counsellor, through her love and support, introduced me to God and I started to attend my local Anglican church. I was very fortunate that the vicar welcomed me with open arms; she showed me Christ's love and spent much time listening, supporting and teaching me the foundations of the Christian faith. I am very grateful for all that she has done for me.

Prior to this I had no church involvement, it just wasn't the done thing in my family, and as a baby I was not Christened. Over a period of time I continued to meet up with my vicar and counsellor and one day I decided that I wanted to be baptised, I asked my counsellor to consider becoming my godmother and she agreed, as our counselling sessions had long finished; she has helped me to gain so much understanding and I am so incredibly grateful for the time she has invested in me.
In 2010 I felt God gave me a message to be bold, strong and step out in faith. I wasn't sure really what to make of this and continued to pray about the situation. It then became very clear to me that I needed to forgive the person who had attacked me as a teenager, and so one day I picked up a leaflet to an event that introduces people to the Christian faith, called the Alpha course and wrote on it "you are forgiven"; I posted it through his door and immediately felt so much relief; it was as if I could stand up taller, a weight had certainly been lifted and I really got a sense of god saying to me that the past is now all done and finished.

Since this, I have been able to give back to my local rape crisis centre by helping victims of rape through one to one support sessions; I am also early evidence trained to help if needed in a police investigation.

Over the last couple of years I have been having a greater sense of Gods purpose for my life and a quote from the bible that was given to me by the bishop who confirmed me, it said "The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me, for the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor. He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted and to proclaim that captives will be released and prisoners will be freed" I really get a sense that this blog has been a long time in the making and is just a small part of the exciting plan God has for my life.

3 comments:

  1. Wow, how amazing to have come through such an experience in such a positive way!

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  2. What a wonderful verse that was given to you. So glad you have come through your ordeal and are able to help others now, well done. Mich x

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  3. What a powerful testimony.

    My own story is similar but in reverse. I was going to Church and considered myself a Christian (had been baptised as an adult, ran a youth group) when I was raped and I lost my faith. x

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